ok so I solved the camera problem I guess... I got the roll out... hadn't rewinded at all and put in a 12 exposure one just took 12 pics of nothing and it rewinded again... I remembered that I had hit some wrong button when outting in the roll hope that was the problem....

some more from the series... (click for bigger versions, digital pics can be found here)

also I'm working o a skin... how about this look? I was thinking of centering it, putting text in coloful boxes and doing something with icons on top (to go to sites I read, to open webcam stuff like that)

filmtransport problem prohibits maggy from participating in photocontest
big loss for www.moma.tk

shit shit shit.... I was taking pics for a photocontest this week...you had to take a pic at 8.00, 13.00, 17.00 and 24.00 hrs from one place in the Netherland... I had the two middle ones (allthough I had problems with a roll of film on sunday as well different camera same brand of film): the photo on the right: taken at 17.00 hrs.

 Last night I took the night ones and just now  I went out to take the last ones... camera started to rewind stopped and stuff so i thought haha i can  take the film out... so i opened it ane aaaargh not rewinded at all...  is it just bad luck or might it be a problem with the film or the camera 

Over the last two months my life gradually has changed (and is changing still)... and allthought I have days where I'm not feeling 100% I feel happy most of the time... I'm on my own wings now I'm going where I need to go...

No bird soars too high if he soars with his own wings.
William Blake

Addicted to Bass

I gottwo pale hands up against the window pane
I'm shaking with the heat of my need again
It starts in my feet, reverbs up to my brain
There's nothing I can do to revert the gain
I'm looking down to the street below
There's nothing in the way they move to show
That they too, know what I knew
They too hunger for the beast below

Listening to the radio I feel so out of place
There's a certain something missing that the treble can't erase
I know you can tell just by looking at my face
A word about my weakness
I'm totally addicted to bass

There's nothing I can do to be cool
I can't sleep till I've had my fuel
It frustrates if I am deprived
A hunger that grates from deep inside
I feel like I'm doing time
Imprisoned by dependence on a rhythm sublime
In my mind I must overcome the need to define
The solitary silence of a faceless crime

Standing by the stereo I'm feeling so alone
My back against a speaker and I'm moving on my own
Surrounded by so many and they're staring at my face
a word about my weakness
I'm totally addicted to bass.

Your bassline is shooting up my spine
Your bassline has got me feeling fine
It's filling up my mind

Sunrise at my window, I look down on the street
People I see everywhere are tapping their feet,
Suddenly I realise in a look that I was wrong
Everybody's groovin to their own song
Down at the scene below
There's something in the way they move to show
They too, know what I know
They too hunger for the beast below

Rhythm's washing over me to wash away my fears
the backbeat of humanity sweetens my tears
there's somethign that's connected us down throughout the years
no need to feel so lonely, everyone's addicted to bass.

© Puretone - click image for video

Ok let's try a small post....

Yesterday i called my grandma... She doesn't know about me and E. splitting up yet... we thought it wasn't such a good idea to tell her (and my grandad) before some things are more clear ... anyway she said  a lot of things that make me wanna puke... and at one point she said something like if you ever have a kid you should bring it to me and I'll raise it after all i raised you too... as if I ever would... I'd rather stop working then having her around my kids... jikkes... oh and she also said 'if it weren't for E. (oh I don't mean that I don't like him) you would be living right here around the corner... hmmm soon she will  awaken from her dream when I tell her we've split up and I have no plans of returning to Antwerp (definitely not as long as she is around ... this may sounds bad to some of you but if you've been through that things i've been through with her... believe me then I'm a very good girl...

This afternoon went to The Leiden art center... They had an exposition on especially for schooklkids to contact them with multimedia forms of art.  One of the works was by Danielle Kwaaitaal an artist and VJ E. knew back in our chat-days with vpro. It was funny but the set up wasn't really all that good...what was nice was that they had  videotaped interviews with the artists.

The building  the center is in is very intriguing. It reminds me of a school or a hospital... will try to find out what it used to be. It has a central garden.  That is here I took these pics:

haven't been doing a lot of real writing lately haven't I...

guess the things going on in my life right now are to big to just chitchat about...

but don't worry I'm feeling happy... only sometimes thinga are a bit weird and there are a lot of things to take care of....

but hey at least I believe in love again... that is a start isn't it? and soemtimes I even feel like dancing again and in the morning when I wake up I hear the birds sing in the trees and realise I hadn't heard them for quite a while

(oh the text on the glass say 'in case of emergency pull'

Which "Natural Wonder" are you?